terça-feira, junho 13, 2006

You'll be in My Heart

Gente, escrevi outra fic!!! Tô tão produtiva esses últimos dias... hahahahahaha. Novamente uma fic slash Charles e Erik, novamente escrita em inglês e novamente baseada em uma música(dessa vez do Phil Collins). Já expliquei o porquê da minha opção de escrever esse tipo de fic em inglês, mas quero falar mais uma coisinha... Algumas coisas ficam mais fáceis de se expressar quando escritas em inglês. Escrevi algumas fics do The Producers também (Leo e Max), mas como o conteúdo é extremamente mais pesado do que o conteúdo das minhas fics de X-Men, eu nem ouso publicá-las aqui. Ah, antes que pensem besteira, é que as fics do The Producers são mais angustiantes e violentas, pois se passam em 1958, quando havia um preconceito absurdo. Bom, vamos falar de amenidades... hehehehehe. Aqui vai a fic!

Beijinhos

PS: Depois vou escrever sobre "Bent", mas já vou adiantar... TDB!!!

You'll Be In My Heart

He didn’t know where he was… It was dark; he was cold, hungry and hurt. He was so hurt that his bones ached. The smell of that place was disgusting, he felt sick and threw up, not bothering to clean anything. All of a sudden he felt a punch on the back of his head and fell, having only enough time to keep his face from touching the hard floor and his own vomit.
“Get up pig! Clean this mess right now! Lick this floor until it is spotless!”
This man spoke another language, but he could understand everything he was saying. He looked at his hands, now filthier than they had been and with some nasty cuts in them, and when he looked at his forearm all came to place. He was in Auschwitz! This wasn’t him, it was Erik!
Charles woke up sweating and saw that Erik was still asleep and crying… He had to do something, he had to wake and help Eric without him knowing, so he entered Eric’s dream.

Come stop your crying

It will be all right

Just take my hand
Hold it tight

I will protect youfrom all around you

I will be here

Don't you cry


Finally he managed to enter Eric’s dream without been notice. The scenario had changed, noises came from everywhere, and Erik was curled up in the corner of the big, almost empty, building. He looked tired, hurt and so skinny, so little and hopeless for 16 years old boy. Charles came closer, the boy looked hard at him and threw some kind of sharp metal at him. Charles stopped it in the middle air and dropped it on the floor. Now the little Eric looked at him with amusement on his face.

“Calm down boy, I’m here to help you, I won’t hurt you… I’m like you.”

Charles stood out his hand to Erik. The boy was a little apprehensive at the beginning, but took the hand and the embrace that was been offered.

“That’s it, calm down boy… It’s going to be all right.”


For one so small,

you seem so strong

My arms will hold you,

keep you safe and warm

This bond between us

Can't be brokenI will be here

Don't you cry

Erik woke up with his face all wet, and he felt exhausted. Charles, knowing that Erik would wake, pretended to asleep. Erik knew better, but decided to play along.
“Charles, are you awake?”
Silence.
“Charles, please, wake up.”
“What is it, Erik?”
“I had a nightmare… About Auschwitz…”
“Indeed…” Charles looked at Erik with amusement. “And what was exactly this dream about?”
“I don’t know… Why don’t you tell me, after all, you were there. Charles, - Erik did not sound hopeless like he was in the dream, he sounded exasperated. – How many times I told you not to come into my head without permission? You know I hate it and I think…”
“We’ve got mixed up while we were asleep, and when I realized it was your dream I woke up, but I couldn’t let you suffer, so… I’m sorry.” - Charles sounded really sorry and found himself at a loss of words.
“I really don’t know what to do with you… - began Erik. – You don’t even let me finish my thoughts! Anyway, what I was going to say is that I really hate it when you do that, BUT I’m glad you did it this time.”

Erik pulled Charles face closer and started to kiss him in every inch of flesh he could find, now fully aware of the lack of clothes on them and the instant response of their bodies. “We have to go down for breakfast or people will start thinking we are two rabbits that can’t keep our paws off of each other.” Said Charles trying to escape Erik’s embrace. “Aren’t we?” Erik replied with a mischievous grin. “Oh, yes my dear, we are. But they don’t need to know it, not for now anyway. C’mon let’s go.” Erik let go with a disapproving sound and started to dress himself up for breakfast.

'Cause you'll be in my heart

Yes, you'll be in my heart

From this day on

Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart

No matter what they say

You'll be here in my heart, always


The 2 men walked through the corridor of Charles school. No, Erik corrected himself, their school, the one they had built together. Every student that passed them on the corridor bid a good morning to Charles, barely noticing Erik’s presence. “Charles, they hate me! They’ll never accept me here… I don’t know why I agreed with this crazy idea in the first place.” Charles continued rolling down the corridor as if he hadn’t heard a thing ‘till his chair stopped moving at all. “Don’t pretend you’re not listening to me!”
//Erik, this is hardly the time or place for us to discuss this. Let’s have breakfast and after that we can discuss.//
Charles felt his chair was released and continued to roll himself to the elevator.
When they arrived at the staff room almost everyone stared at them, mostly at Erik. //Great, just what I needed to start my day! A bunch of angry x-men shooting daggers with their eyes ‘cause they think I’m molesting their dear schoolmaster.//
//They’re certainly not thinking that, I mean, some of them are, but it’s nothing to worry about.//
//Good! Should I enlighten them about who’s molesting who?//
Charles couldn’t help the chuckle that escaped his throat.
“So professor, care to share with us the motive of your laughter?”
Charles looked at the blue man standing by the coffee machine. Hank had come back since Jean’s death, almost 3 years ago. Erik had come to him about 6 months ago. He said he was tired of fighting, that he had been since their “daughter” had died, but he couldn’t let go of the Brotherhood ‘till Mystique’s death. Charles remembered the urgent staff meeting he had called at 2 AM when he received the message that Erik would be arriving at any minute.


Why can't they understandthe way we feel

They just don't trustwhat they can't explain

I know we're different but,deep inside us

We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart

Yes, you'll be in my heart

From this day on

Now and forever more


“You can’t be serious professor! – shouted Scott. – This is the man that almost killed everyone of us! Jean is dead because of him!”
“No Scott, Jean is dead because she made a choice, and her choice was to save us, no matter what.” – Charles replied patiently.
“Chuck, I have to agree with Mr. Laser here. How could you expect Rogue to live under the same roof of the guy that tried to kill her?!?” – said Logan looking at him as if he had completely lost it.
“Charles, you know I usually don’t question your decisions, but I have to agree with Logan on this one.” – added Ororo.
“Hank, anything you want to say?”
“No Charles, I thrust you.”
“Now I can ask directly to the person you were all so worried about…” They all stared at the door as Rogue walked in rubbing the sleep off of her eyes.
“Did you call me, professor? – She looked around and saw everyone there. – Is everything all right?!? What’s happening???”
“Calm down child, it’s nothing serious.”
“Humpf! – Scott sneered at him. – You call the arrive of that murderer “nothing serious”.
“Murderer? What’s he talking about professor?”
“Rogue, Erik, I mean, Magneto, has sent me a massage telling me he’s coming back to the school, as matter of fact, he should be arriving at any minute now. I wanted to ask what are your feelings about this. Rogue, I want to remind you, if you say that you don’t want him here I will send him away.”


Don't listen to them

'Cause what do they know

We need each other,

to have, to hold

They'll see in time

I know

When destiny calls you

You must be strongI may not be with you

But you've got to hold on

They'll see in timeI know

We'll show them together


Rogue only stared blankly at him, with an unreadable expression on her face. What should she do?!? She was not afraid of him, she knew he hadn’t meant to hurt her, at least not personally… She knew he thought he was doing a favor for all mutant kind, but she could read in Scott’s expression he wasn’t the least pleased about the situation. Suddenly a wave of images, memories to be more precise, flooded her brain. This weren’t her memories… Love, pain, care, tenderness, mistrust and anger started to battle inside of her, and then one of the memories came to focus.
It was morning at the mansion, many years ago, she saw a little red haired girl standing in front of the professor, and he could walk! She saw Magneto’s figure leaning against the doorframe, observing Professor Xavier teach something to the girl.
“Very good, Jean. You’re learning to control your powers very well. Someday you will be better than all of us.”
The girl smiled and threw her arms around Xavier’s neck hugging him tightly.
“I could never be better than you, daddy.”
“Oh, is that so? So he is the only one with great powers AND the only one who receives a hug. I’m deeply hurt.”
This time Rogue saw that Erik was already standing at Professor Xavier’s side and sounded amused and a little bit hurt, but a smile played on his lips. The girl let go of the Professor’s neck, looked up at Erik’s face, opened another huge smile and threw herself at him, just like she had done with Professor Xavier, but this time Erik pulled her up to his lap.
“I could never be better than any of my daddy’s. I love both of you too much, I could never have asked for better parents.”
Rogue felt a wave of love stronger than anything she ever felt before, and it was coming from Erik.
“We love you too, my dear. Don’t you ever doubt that. We’ll always be with you.” - Erik said hugging her tightly, like he would never let go.
“I won’t.”
Erik let go of Jean and turned to the Professor.
“Don’t you dare keeping her studding all day, it’s a beautiful day outside and we are having a picnic.”
“All right, picnic we shall have, but first we have to end this lesson, after that we have all day.”
“Good. – Said Erik, then he kissed Charles fully on the mouth and looked at him tracing a line on the other man’s jaw with his finger. – I love you.”
“I love you too.” Replied Charles, now holding Erik’s hand. They heard giggles and something that sounded like Jean saying “Awwww!”
Erik looked at her trying to fight his own giggles.
“Do stop giggling like a fool and finish your lesson or there’ll be no picnic!”


'Cause you'll be in my heart

Yes, you'll be in my heart

From this day on,

Now and forever more

Oh, you'll be in my heart

No matter what they say

You'll be in my heart, always

Always


Rogue came back to the present and sensed something tense on the air. When she managed to focus again she saw that Magneto was already there and Scott looked like he could commit a cold blood murder and never feel any kind of regret. Magneto was standing at the Professor’s side, just like that day on her/his memory and she felt that same wave of love hit her again and started to cry… She had never had that.
“Hey kiddo, are you all right?” – Asked Logan.
“Well, it seems pretty clear to me that she doesn’t want this guy here. – Said Scott.
“No! – She managed to talk. – Wait…” She started to walk towards Magneto, stopped in front of him and looked up to him. He was tense, she could feel it, she didn’t want him to feel uncomfortable at his own house, so she did the most unthinkable thing, she threw her arms around his waist and hugged him.
“She never stopped loving you both.”
After a moment of tension Erik relaxed, hugged her back and started to cry.
“I didn’t want to hurt you. I’m so sorry.”
“I know.”
“So, I think is settled, he will stay with us.” Charles stated with a smile playing on his lips.
//Welcome back, old friend.//
“Thank you, love.”
Rogue started to giggle and the only think she could say was “Awww!”

Charles looked at the breakfast table, Erik was already seated and engaged in a conversation with Hank and Ororo, Scott was finishing his coffee and discussing something with Logan and Rogue just stared at them with a small smile on her lips. When she noticed that the Professor was staring at her she said just for him to hear.
“You know what professor, they still don’t understand and some of them still don’t accept, but I think that on the right time they will understand and they’ll be happy when they do.”
“Rogue, what did you see the day Erik arrived?” Charles had never asked her that, but he thought he had some idea. She looked at him, then at Erik and at last she looked at Jean’s picture on the wall.
“Love, professor. I saw love.”